放手吧...

又回到部落格，又是心情很差的时候..
以前一直因为一直不停的牵着自己的爱，再辛苦都无所谓..
但是今天的我，忽然觉得分手应该对大家都好吧..
爱得那么辛苦，每天吵吵闹闹的，忽然感觉想结束了..
一个没办法为我牺牲的男人，一个只为自己着想自私的男人..
我应该放弃了吗？一直不停的问自己..
不停的问，因为放不下，要不然为什么不停的问?
人就是这样，犯贱！
但是自己心里很明白，没舍下，就不会有得。

发了一封简讯给他
“我应该放弃了吗？我在为自己的未来打算，但是我需要一个对的人”
“我想我应该放弃了，即使知道自己很爱你，但你做不了我所谓的对的人”
“我哭了，我知道应该让你离开，但是我觉得很辛苦很伤心，但是我已无他选择”

决定离开一个自己很爱的人，真的很难受..
很希望他已经不是我爱的人，可能我会比较好过一点..

爱一个人就像我经常说的，要他幸福..
他的父母和他的以前的女朋友都不爱他吗？
为什么一直不停的打扰我们，而他却是一个从来不体谅我感受的人..
一直不停的让我受伤，我已经受够了..

再回想我的妈妈，我以前的男朋友..
妈妈从来不会给意见，只会不停的支持我..
即使知道这男人对我有多差，她却只会尊重我的决定..
以前的男朋友，没有一个会打扰我..
因为分手了，每个人都要自己走自己的路..
哪像那无耻的女人，经常骚扰不停..
一点都不潇洒..

算了吧..
继续寻找我的真名天子..
加油吧！

回忆过去…

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了.…

这首歌曲很适合现在的心情吧
即使已经离去 但心里还是想着他

愿来生还能再度拥抱…

可能今生缘分已尽
期待却没有中断
希望和等待即使下辈子也可以

身体越来越差
自己知自己事
也许只会带给他沉重的包袱
离开 其实也不是一定不好
可能自己没办法给他幸福
希望他能永远快乐

似我曾经所言：
爱一个人不是占有
爱一个人不是自私
爱一个人是让对方得到快乐

很想再一次对他说“我爱你”
但是已经没有机会了…

爱情

什么是爱情？
有多少人真的懂得爱情？

曾经问有好几个朋友这类似的问题
懂得很多的人其实并不多
但是我却被认为很懂得爱情的人
其实，懂得理智的人就懂得什么是爱情

曾经是一个不理智的人
还以为自己很懂得爱情
直到前两年发生了一点小意外
才发现以前的自己是多么的幼稚和不理智

爱情对我来说本来就没有保障
因为它就是我曾经形容的无形跷跷板
它是看不见也碰不到的
就只等靠自己的感觉来平衡

当自己与对面的他踏上了跷跷板
两人就本来应该要为对方着想
为了不让任何一方摔倒
彼此每一步的进退
都是会为了配合对方的处境而动

跷跷板的中心点
就是彼此爱情的结合站
有情人终成眷属

每一段爱情的开始到结束
不是一个人就能完成的任务
都是需要彼此的坦白、体谅和扶持
没有委屈或不公平
只有你愿不愿意

往往两人都无法到终点
要从跷跷板下来
也需要懂得坦白、体谅和扶持
坦白的说 体谅对方的心情 扶持彼此安全的下来

爱一个人不是占有
爱一个人不是自私

爱一个人是让对方得到快乐

Happy New Year!!

Almost forget some of my dear friends are not understand Chinese.
Banana men..
Ops.. Sorry~
Please forgive me..
Not banana men, I should say.. banana men & ladies..
Ha ha ha~~
+__+|| what's the stupid begining?

Have disappear from my blog for quite long time.
Hmm.. What I did for my pass 1 year?
Still the same, moved!
Ya, I was moving from KL to SG last year.
But why SG again?? Hmm hmm..
I have no idea too.. But I know why I always keep moving.

Haha.. still the same.
Try to escape from the problem I met.
Very useless right?
I am tired to move again..
How long I can escape from the problem I met?
But I learn alot in my pass 1 year in SG.
I learn to be brave, I learn to be stronger..

Why say so?
I really learn it.. but I'm still learning.
Learn to be brave to face my problem and solve the problem.
Need to be stronger so I can stand up myself.

No more escape no more hiding.
Hopefully this is the way I really can facing myself.
To be a better girl..
To be a better daughter to my lovely Mummy..

My wish!
Happy New Year My Dear Friends!!

又一年了..

原来我已经很久都没来这里了。
记得我的人还有多少？
哦..应该说还记得我这个部落格的人还有多少？
很想说：我的部落格，对不起，我差点遗忘了你。

这过去的一年，我有好好的过吗？
想想啊..嗯~应该有吧。
在KL过了一年，去年3月又搬来新加坡。
我一直在问自己为什么我又来到这里？
现在的我很肯定的说，我知道为什么了。

我其实是一个讨厌鬼，
没有耐性、没有分寸..
遇到问题就只会逃避、自以为是。

有没有发现我一直新加坡、古晋、吉隆坡这样换位置？
我以前还一直以为我是在不对的地方，
所以就喜欢一直换位置。
兜来兜去，还不是回到新加坡？
这过去在新加坡的一年里，我才真正的找到问题所在。

其实这个地球本来就是圆的，
我怎么样兜还不是会回到原点？
问题不是出现在地球的哪个角落，
而是我自己，这位姓黄的大小姐。

我每次就是那么窝囊！
感情线不直了，就想找个地方换心情，拉直脑袋的根。
心情不好，去哪都还不是一样？

当你每次问自己：“为什么我那么倒霉？”
或是会问自己：“为什么这种事每次发生在我身上？”
你会不会就自己回答：“我就是没那种运气。”？
“肯定是谁谁谁害我的。”等等..

其实你有没有想过，
在自己很倒霉时，是不是自己的运气很差，还是自己的努力没到终点？
有时候自己觉得自己很努力了，但是还是没有成功。
上天没眼，就这样放弃？
对的机会不是人给，而是自己争取。
只要自己不放弃的追求下去，必定会有个对的机会就这样的跟着你不离开。
不气馁、珍惜和努力就会给自己得到我们所谓的运气。

我曾经是这样的人..
从小到大：“为什么倒霉的人总会是我？”
“为什么大家就不信任我”？
“为什么这个地方让我那么不开心”?
我讨厌这些人、这些地方，我就离开..
但是我每次一兜，又是这些人 、这样的地方..

原来我以前都错了。
如果我一直改变不了自己的角度，
去到哪里，我看见的角度还是同一个位置。
为什么又预见一个让我伤心的人？-人
为什么那些人想的都不和我一致？-事
为什么又回到这个我想不记得的地方？-地

我很谢谢自己看透了自己的固执。
如果我有天学会了:
对人-
其实那个人对我很好，因为他对我很坦白，不是他故意要伤我，他其实有他的道理..
对事-
其实他们不是逆我的意，每个人都有自己的处理方式..
对地-
人是没有办法改变地球，走过的路，有喜有悲，为何不回头看看，谢谢回忆让自己成长？

我要是能做到以上的三点，
我就是学会用其他不同的角度看生命..
我会更努力，我会不放弃的做好自己。

我不会在逃避，我不会在固执，
我要做个很好的自己。

祝大家“新年快乐”！^_^

Luna Bar @ 33rd Floor

Hola como estas??
long time no see guys.. ^_^
I am sorry for long time didn't come for my blog.
I am pretty good in KL now.
Busy in my work, busy in my colourful life too.
Wakaka~ You know what I mean right?
Of cause is playing around KL la^^
Oh.. Not only KL, Selangor too @(^.^)@

I went to Luna Bar attended a wedding dinner / party there last saturday.
Haha.. It's located at 33rd Floor of Pacific Hotel.
This is the 2nd time I went to Luna Bar.
But that day baru then I know it can be no roof top!!
Wow~~ Very nice decoration lor..







Can see the tallest Twin Tower in the world from Luna Bar.
Very nice view right? Actually Luna Bar is a very romantic place for couple.
Of cause not for me, i am not a romantic girl =.=

我的周末！

我的两天假期就一直往RTM里跑，因为跟着我的好朋友Wince咯。但是很好玩^^

这是我的朋友Nichalous。昨天一早被我和Wince吵醒，叫他来RTM面试，RTM现在要找导播啊。他就这样blur blur的来了。他的表现很不错，得到不少人的赞赏。之后又遇见一位经纪人，刚好德国要找新人拍戏，戏名叫”Dream Hotel”，他就跟了那经纪人去面试，今天是他的幸运日呗，加油啊！


昨晚在电视台看现场的马来乐团比赛，主持人Zed & Emelda在后台化妆室是很友善的。

Wince在给他们化妆时，Zed给我拍照，还扮鬼脸。


节目要开始了！工作人员在与两位主持人讨论。


Zed 在节目开始前，就先与观众哗啦了。


节目开始了！马来人唱歌我真的听不明白啊~~~


Zed & Emelda在主持节目当中。


现场节目嘛，电视可以直接看到哦…


老实说啦，里面真的“鬼死感冻”。冷到我都发抖！！
我这两天的周末，没有化妆，因为之前病了，脸上有豆豆，所以要保养，哈哈~~

我和马来演员、主持人Emelda 的合照，她很美啊…


我和Zed 的合照，我超级的矮呀喂！！
拍了照片还给那里的工作人员笑，说Zed 之前没有看他搂其他人一起拍照。
哈哈~~ 讲废话作弄我们而已咯…

Largest Malaysia PC Fair

日期：11.04.2008 – 13.04.2008
地点：KLCC

我在IT公司里工作，马来西亚最大的电脑展销会，当然不会少了我们啦。

我们底楼的当铺


第一天早上，没什么人的时候。


我们三楼的当铺


最后一天的三楼…东西很便宜也不需要那么多人呗？=_=




展销结束了，有些公司还要briefing..


结束了结束了！工作的人都准备要离开了哦……


三天的辛苦，我当然也要给自己一些照片留纪念啊~
五位Epson的美女答应与我一起拍照哦…很开心咯^^



展销会后，我的肚子不舒服了三天，妈妈说我是吃东西不定时，我还发烧了…

在吉隆坡的一个月

好久都没有时间来这里写我的部落。知道很多朋友都很关心我，很抱歉的，我的生活不是过得很好。 很想知道为什么吧？一，工作压力。二，经济有点困难。三，身体健康不如前。四，感情亮红灯。
我已经在尽量了，我努力了。现在的生活与心情总算选比较平稳了吧…

我在这里，我最想感谢的就是我妈妈。我妈妈很爱我…比我想象的还要多。就算是我全家人都放弃了我，她都没有嫌弃我的不断给我支持。每次我一想到她这样的对待我，我都哭了…
世上只有妈妈好！真的是没有出的一句话。妈妈…我爱你！

还有在吉隆坡一直在我身边的Kunga，我很感谢你，一开始如果不是你，我真的不知道应该怎么办。谢谢你~

不久前我认识了一位女生Wince，她住在我家隔壁的Condo而已。最近的几个星期，她差不多每天都与我在一起。我心情低落，她安慰我，尽量给我安排很多节目，让我又累又开心。她在帮我忘记很多过去。谢谢你~

地点：Poppy
这是第一次与Wince一起去酒吧玩，我很开心，因为她帮我打扮得很漂亮。因为她是化妆师耶^^

I am BACK!!!

I am not in Kuching anymore. Sorry for late inform to my dear friends. I am in Kuala Lumpur right now, and gonna start my new work life here on next monday.

What I work?? Hmm... Is IT Marketing Executive. But not selling anything lar. U guys will c me always online here again ^_^

Got to update my blog now.. Wait ar.. I need to edit my pic 1st~

Midnight Photo Shooting

We found that there is very little people had midnight out door photo shooting. We arranged the time to have it after that. We did it ^.^ But very sayang that we just went to 3 places only.

3 of us, Gui Hua (Hua Yi Studio), Me (Charlene) & my girl friend Kunga. We met up around 9 something I think. 1st, must feed our stomach. Best location, Bestberry Cafe at Ang Cheng Ho lor. Got my favourite "ban mian" & white milk tea there^.^

There was a lot of people having their tea there when we reached Bestberry Cafe. But luckly we had a corner sofa seat <(^.^)y 1st, ordered foods & drinks. 2nd, on my laptop (at the end only that Kunga playing until we left) 3rd, played the camera Gui Hua brought along.

This picture took from Gui Hua. I was not taking anything, just acting there only. But is after some of the customers left. If not, I cannot anyhow sit lar.

After our meal in Bestberry Cafe. We trying to find a nicer place for our photo shooting. 1st location, in front of the BIG Christmas tree at Travillion Mall.



This is the 2nd place. She is Kunga, my girl friend. Why I always say she is my girl friend? haha~ Definitely we are not les okay.. We are very close & good friends. She was trying to take something with the camera, but she kena catched by me.


Thanks Gui Hua (Hua Yi Studio) was standing in the middle of the high way with me to have this wonderful shooting. See the back ground, you will know why I said that. It's dangerous man! The cars speeding at the back lar.



This picture is very nice. Thanks to my dear dear Kunga. You did a very nice shoot.

Last location, Kuching International Airport.
Why we choose this place? You guys also know right? The lighting is very "wee ee wee" beautiful lar^.^
Acting cool with my Kunga, cool or not?


Fly~ Fly~ Fly~ Fly like the aeroplane.
1.. 2.. 3.. JUMP!!


Dont try to think you can bully 2 of us. We can kill you anytime. Wahaha~ We just acting only lar..


When the time we sit down for our supper, it was 3am+ already. Always forget our time when we play. But I really enjoy it. Thanks my friends~^^

没有你的我

撕掉抽屉里的信
烧掉你我的照片
打开窗口大喊早安
温暖阳光紧紧拥抱着我
新的生活每天从此开始

抛开脑袋的画面
搁下心理的沉重
走在七彩的彩虹上
闪亮自己的每一个角度
让别人看见最美的一面

没有你的我
永远不会因为你而失落
一个人的我
依然能够过得精彩美丽
失落的时候
能够找到人生的新目标
伤心的时候
每个朋友都会逗我开心
没有你的我
我依然还是我自己
不要以为你自己很了不起
*
一切一切努力
其实我只想继续的爱你

================================================

写完了..
有没有人可以看出这个人到底在想什么？

Shiloh Cafe 示罗

Shiloh Cafe located at Travillion Mall next to J saloon.
Operating hours:
Mon-Sat 7am- 10.30pm
Sun Close


My office also at Travillion Mall too. This is my 1st time had my lunch there. Atually they just started their business few weeks before.
When the time i stepped into the cafe, i dont dare to take out my hp and take the picture actually. So we just sat down and looked at the menu which they gave to us.
I saw this nice food pictures onto the table. It's cover with a thick glass.


Their menu.. a lot of foods. But all are western foods.


After we ordered the foods. I found their counter is nice. Looks like a bar table.


Something hiding at the corner. Haha~ That is a smaller ktv set there. After that then i found, it's main door actually =.= i came in with their back door. chew~
I did ask the lady boss, she said the ktv set is only for their church members come for gathering. Wah.. Special ar. Ops.. I should looking around 1st before I ask lar.


Dont know what is it. But the light is very nice. It's a closs.


This wall "abba father", i dont know what is it at all. I am buddish lar.


Very cute book mark on the table.



Just took for few picture only, our foods all came already^_^ yam yam.. can start to eat lor~


After our lunch, i played with my boss daughter awhile.

Very full for our lunch that day. Cannot order too much of foods next time.
But hor, their foods realy nice lor. Can go and try~^^

My New Hair Style From Jack's Saloon

15-December-2007
Half day work today, Saturday ma.. Of cause lar. Felt like to cut my hair, think more than 4 months nvr go saloon liao. Hmm.. I called Jack and made an appointment at 2pm. Haha~ When i reach there, it was nearly to 3.

Cut a little bit is enough liao lar. My hair hor, keep for more than 4 yrs liao. Dont dare to cut it too short. I keep talking non stop there.

At the end.. hmm hmm.. i perm my hair~^^

Jack started to cut my hair.. my LOVELY HAIR!


He was very bz not only for me..


Pretty Ah Pei from Ipoh. Jack's gf~^^
Wee ee wee~~~


This is Vincent, my friend also.
His hair looks like Simsons hor??


Ops.. Someone walked in and sitting there.
Timothy lar~ (http://twvsk.blogspot.com/)
He wanna cut his hair also.. very special cutting wor^^
Timothy post photo! Timothy post photo! Timothy post photo!


See! Ask u dont act liao. wahaha~ dont angry ar^^


Oh.. Met my friends there.


This fellow, hee.. he is very sven 1 lar.


Ops.. started to perm my hair.
It is very HEAVY!!! HELP!!!!!


Very innocent face. Finally can take out everything.


Having treatment. Looks funny. haha~


I played with this didi after they done my hair.
But he always gives me this type of face =.="


Am i look nice?


From left, Pei, Me, Jack..
Felt like went to the wrong shop.
But not bored when i having 4 hours perm for my hair there.
It's fun man. Yor~


At the same night..
I wanna go out lor!
B4 i went out, have a sweet shoot in my room.
Hello friends! Any comment for my new hair style?